As 2009 comes to an end

As I'm sitting her at work (no worries, I'm on my lunch break), I'm reflecting on 2009 and what a year of change this has been. We welcomed the new addition to our family, Ms. Sophie Elizabeth, but we've also had to adapt to being parents. Let me tell you, this has NOT been easy for me. I fear change :) Working and being a mommy is VERY difficult! I know it will get easier as she gets older (I've seen how my sister is with my nephew and she's been a great role model for me), but that was the hardest thing to have to adapt to. I hate sending her there everyday and missing out on all the cute things she does. Even though I get her at home, it's usually eat, bath, and then bedtime. I don't feel like I get enough time. It's not even the fact that I have to work, it's the fact that I have a long and stressful commute to and from work. An hour in the morning, sometimes longer in the evening because of rush hour traffic. PLUS I have to worry, is there going to be a wreck? What if I don't pick her up on time? Who wants their child at daycare 9, 10 hours a day? That's hard!

I've been pretty stressed out this year. Financially it's been the most difficult year we've encountered. You throw daycare dues on top of that and I feel like we should be driving a Mercedes because of how much we pay a month. Juggling being a mom, a wife, and an employee is very difficult. This has been the most difficult part for me. I'm working on it. I can't say that I've been the happiest person at times, but I've always put on a smiley face for my daughter. I don't want her to see her mommy unhappy.

With that being said, I'm turning over a new leaf for 2010. No more being stressed (well a little stress is ok and I can't help that I get road rage). I'm going to try to take things in stride. I can't change the traffic situation so I'm going to have to learn how to grin and bear it. Ideally I would love to move closer to my job (would L-O-V-E to move from Summerville) but I'm not optimistic that we will be able to sell our house. We can try, you can always try, I'm just saying with 2 dogs and a baby, how the heck are we (1) going to keep in clean and (2) show it with the dogs around? I'm just being realistic here. We probably should have moved before we had a baby but why think about that now? Oh yeah, plus the housing market was crap before I got pregnant.

So de-stress my life. I can't keep getting upset over every little thing. It'll be hard but I'm going to give it a whirl. The other part of my New Years Resolution is to stay positive. Things don't always work out like we plan (if you're a Miller then things NEVER work out as planned). One day we will be able to sell our house, it may just not be this year. BUT we can start fixing it up, right Ricky??? Instead of always talking about doing things... LET'S DO IT!!

2010 is going to be the year of the upswing. We're going to get back on track, be happy, and stay healthy.

2010 is also the year of the half marathon. I'm still doing it, no backing down for me!! Training is going well, I drag my butt out of bed at 4:15 in the morning about 3 days a week to run and workout. I'm up to 5 miles and need to be at 6.2 in 2 weeks. Riverfront Race Festival, 10k, January 16th!!

I'm happy that 2009 brought me Sophie, but I'm looking forward to watching her grow in 2010! Ricky and I will be celebrating our 6 year wedding anniversary, and I'll be turning 30! We have lots of things to look forward to. I can't wait to get Sophie on the boat or to the beach. She's going to be such a little beach baby.

Happy New Year's to all friends and family. I hope 2010 brings everyone health and happiness!